This Just In...

So, I did pretty good yesterday!! woot woot.

I mean only 150 cals over what I like to normally have, so yeah like 1300...I know that seems incredibly high, and it actually is kinda hard to eat that much lately. I think I'm going to take my intake down from 1100-1200 to less than a 1000...I'm just worried I'll lose my metabolism and the muscle thats keeping me looking fit. I really don't want to have thunder thighs of muscle either though, so maybe if I lose just a little I'll be better off, idk though I really like what working out does for my mind and body, and if I want to keep up the strenous workouts then I shouldn't go too low with my intake.

If anyone has an opinion or what they would do in my situation I'm all ears (or eyes rather)

Anyways, back to why I'm writing the post, last night I came home and the whole women's lacross team was in my living room (my roommates are the capt's) they were doing a gifting game and I just went in my room on Pretty Thin til they left. Omg some of these girls are huge, like built like bull kinda thing. They were just bein loud and munching on chips and fatty food, I made a vegan burger on light bread (ended up not eating the bread anyways) and I was full--after I'd spent like over a hour at the gym doing hard cardio. I don't know whats come over me but I'M LOVING IT and the control is just so natural now, it used to be really difficult to say no to myself (and others), but not anymore. Every time I say no, the more amazing I feel. I really think that I can kick my mia for good if I can be that good on a Friday night--not to mention this night in particular marked the last day of classes before finals, so it was party city around the college everyone was going out. But, my roommates and friends just stayed in and I got blaaazzed outta my mind--which is also unlike me, I usually don't smoke pot but my guy friend sells it and was up visiting and "forgot" his weed and I've been so stressed with finals and papers so each night I've been taking some hits...helps me fall asleep cus lately that's been kinda hard. So yeah, we just hung out, I had a glass of wine, and watched BrokeBack Mountain on Bravo...which let me tell you Bravo, you suck! They could show him sexing his wife but not the part where they do it in the tent, ridiculous.

So, yeah today I'm going Christmas shopping with $200...that'll take me real far. I would only have 2 people to buy for if it wasn't for my boyfriend's extremely huge Italian family so yeah, I gotta stretch it out. Also, I gotta wait until I sell my Neuroscience book back, cus I should get at least 60$ for it aka my mom's present.

Ok, going to watch the latest Biggest loser on Hulu, then shop, then attempt to write a paper. However, I think I'm going to take a "personal" day today. We'll see where my motivation is headed. <3